I’m done fighting.
Today I look at the devil,
I write to reclaim myself
The shame is not yours to carry,
Those scars don’t own you
Survivor of a civil war
Tell me what’s wrong?
I’ll listen,
Promise I won’t think badly of you
Do you still see things chasing you?
If I told you I still see things from yesterday,
Flashes from days pierce me
Smell of a rotten oak ,
bathe then bathe then bathe
Want no devil near me,
Scratch then scratch then scratch
To peel off scales of memories
Worries up and down
Heart jumping in this drum-skin chest
You’re freaking out…
You’re leaking out, they say,
What they forgot to say
What is all that? sorrow
drop by drop
grain by grain
I have never forgotten you
Playing around in that park
guilt-anger see-saw
rusting red swing
that was never safe
I met a nice man today
Blue eyes pale skin
Met him by the sea
In a city of grey shadows
Where have you been? he said
Looking for the sun I walked on with him
Into heavy clouds, stubborn rocks cascade
A wild beauty,
Water-falling off my prayer ready soul
Sand on my forehead peace in my blood
That Monroe we reached
Where they stand?
Far far behind
We’re there,
We’ve got each other.
We kissed today
Tasted like a hot cup of Yorkshire tea
I stood there naked in front of him
Just me a soul,
I want to sculpt you he said
Never saw scars this deep,
He traced them
For the first time my scars so beautiful sang
They lit up so bright like breeze through baobab tree
I spoke with a lady today
Her name was Mary
I stood there in her four-by-four room
Gladiator shedding masks
She said I can trust her,
It was hard.
I have travelled with you inside
A hidden secret of a life time
I was afraid to stop and ask
If you were alright
My inner child,
Will you rise up to meet me?
Yours faithfully,
Me.
I’m done fighting.
Today I look at the devil,
I write to reclaim myself
The shame is not yours to carry,
Those scars don’t own you
Survivor of a civil war
Tell me what’s wrong?
I’ll listen,
Promise I won’t think badly of you
Do you still see things chasing you?
If I told you I still see things from yesterday,
Flashes from days pierce me
Smell of a rotten oak ,
bathe then bathe then bathe
Want no devil near me,
Scratch then scratch then scratch
To peel off scales of memories
Worries up and down
Heart jumping in this drum-skin chest
You’re freaking out…
You’re leaking out, they say,
What they forgot to say
What is all that? sorrow
drop by drop
grain by grain
I have never forgotten you
Playing around in that park
guilt-anger see-saw
rusting red swing
that was never safe
I met a nice man today
Blue eyes pale skin
Met him by the sea
In a city of grey shadows
Where have you been? he said
Looking for the sun I walked on with him
Into heavy clouds, stubborn rocks cascade
A wild beauty,
Water-falling off my prayer ready soul
Sand on my forehead peace in my blood
That Monroe we reached
Where they stand?
Far far behind
We’re there,
We’ve got each other.
We kissed today
Tasted like a hot cup of Yorkshire tea
I stood there naked in front of him
Just me a soul,
I want to sculpt you he said
Never saw scars this deep,
He traced them
For the first time my scars so beautiful sang
They lit up so bright like breeze through baobab tree
I spoke with a lady today
Her name was Mary
I stood there in her four-by-four room
Gladiator shedding masks
She said I can trust her,
It was hard.
I have travelled with you inside
A hidden secret of a life time
I was afraid to stop and ask
If you were alright
My inner child,
Will you rise up to meet me?
Yours faithfully,
Me.
I’m done fighting.
Today I look at the devil,
I write to reclaim myself
The shame is not yours to carry,
Those scars don’t own you
Survivor of a civil war
Tell me what’s wrong?
I’ll listen,
Promise I won’t think badly of you
Do you still see things chasing you?
If I told you I still see things from yesterday,
Flashes from days pierce me
Smell of a rotten oak ,
bathe then bathe then bathe
Want no devil near me,
Scratch then scratch then scratch
To peel off scales of memories
Worries up and down
Heart jumping in this drum-skin chest
You’re freaking out…
You’re leaking out, they say,
What they forgot to say
What is all that? sorrow
drop by drop
grain by grain
I have never forgotten you
Playing around in that park
guilt-anger see-saw
rusting red swing
that was never safe
I met a nice man today
Blue eyes pale skin
Met him by the sea
In a city of grey shadows
Where have you been? he said
Looking for the sun I walked on with him
Into heavy clouds, stubborn rocks cascade
A wild beauty,
Water-falling off my prayer ready soul
Sand on my forehead peace in my blood
That Monroe we reached
Where they stand?
Far far behind
We’re there,
We’ve got each other.
We kissed today
Tasted like a hot cup of Yorkshire tea
I stood there naked in front of him
Just me a soul,
I want to sculpt you he said
Never saw scars this deep,
He traced them
For the first time my scars so beautiful sang
They lit up so bright like breeze through baobab tree
I spoke with a lady today
Her name was Mary
I stood there in her four-by-four room
Gladiator shedding masks
She said I can trust her,
It was hard.
I have travelled with you inside
A hidden secret of a life time
I was afraid to stop and ask
If you were alright
My inner child,
Will you rise up to meet me?
Yours faithfully,
Me.
